I Miss You

Once upon a time i was a little good boy
over pampered and so innocent, yet
i had my own little school life
dark blue was my uniform, and in that only clean dress
i used to look at the school window panes, and
back at home ask you," do i look handsome?"
and yes, awesome!...you always used to say that...
and today, the world is different
not like i was on your lap poking your nose
and making you laugh long ago...
now, i've already seen people dying
i've met people of all styles, and
i've done bad and good, perhaps everything possible
and i've learnt a lesson:
life is one's power, switch is in the mind
the real life is the light that comes off it
to me, you are my switch
and, to the world, we are light!
my instinct with you has always been good
like you said, life is really beautiful
life has nothing to do with materials
i don't fancy money, lover, job and so forth...

But sometimes...:'( :'(
i feel only a shadow touches my heart
and the memories are fading, remembering you
i had to lose your face several times in the blurring past
wish i had your photos
i pity our elders burning them...
i really miss you
the only Godess i ever saw, once who
sitting by the fire, looking through the window
watching rain, her mind thinking only of my worries
and well-being at school
but today, like you did, i do at least pray for you...:(
*OM MANI PADME HUNG*

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Childhood Adventure!

The place was all clouds, everywhere...the air was dull
crikets chirping, in the middle of horrible woods
once, know not when but
certainly not in one of my nightmares
in the distant childhood, i was left alone there!
The worst night ever...
it was getting darker, more unpleasant sounds of the forest
no neighbours, at least not within my screaming
i was helpless, a poor boy lost in summer vacation
no dinner except for a wet match box
there i was in a shaggy bungalow once upon a time
amidst tall woods
rain drops beating every leaf...
everything was wet, and muddy if it weren't for those harsh bushes
the wind was a torrent of the gusty trees
felt the whole earth was moving...
in between, muttered some mantra i heard mom say
still..sounds of the howling animals and wind didn't stop..
it was the beginning of a new month...no sign of the moon
complete darkness...looking up, sky was the only light...
fighting my cowardice in fear as any child would
there was no peace sleeping there...
testing courage from head and heart
with kenchosum in my heart, how impressive i knew that! :P
i began walking, not eyes but like a blind man
crossed few streams...and rugged slippery terrain added the trouble
fell down...rose up...leeches and nettle plant...ouch!!!
hurt but determined i kept walking
miles after miles, paying deaf ears to devilish voices along
without light...but with instinct i tried not to faint and surrender
wheeling on with only my will and prayers
finally i was home....and
i felt i had met my parents for the first time that night :)))

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Trying To Be Good Once Again!

These are more beautiful: sweet home and a clean facebook profile. Had it not been for my own instinct, I'd have still been a sick man seeking fun in the fantasy world. By the way, i don't mean i hated my old self; in fact i'm used to changing moods and styles. But don't ever change for something or someone that you may love with all your heart. I say i'm a new man because in my old ways, there wasn't spaces in my acts to succeed what i need to survive good and well. Well..of course, a man can change to his needs; so i can't say i can't be a naughty, ill-advised boy again!

I deleted all the wall posts, both ill and good statuses, for my own good. It took me almost an hour. With a mind to stop writing bad stuffs i've changed the whole facebpook profile from my username to display photo. But i may change back whenever necessary to save my boring life.

Not only e-life, i'm cleaning my room too. Old and messed up things are being removed; new styles and arrangements are being made, and it's cooler this way. Big tables are removed because i need space; my mind needs space too...all i ever want is a space to be free and effective in studying. Otherwise, everything these days has kept me lost and wild...all i need is to focus once again!

To the work now...ciao!

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Only Time Will Answer My Love!

My life shines but only on the wing of our love, that only of heaven, we have heard but the gossips are false today; heaven on earth are we in this love! Sweet air, drizzling wind with the rainbow, born of our love is so heavenly! I love you Bella. Fantasy or dream, i would not, anymore, care reality; for life freezes without someone like you in my heart. It has never been one time or two times that we talked about love and compilations we have grown in our heart; still, we have never been back to back in this lovely affair.

It's lucky me and people are gonna have me put me in their dictionaries to have words like "lucky", "happy", "love", etc defined. With you, everything are but like gifts from gods. Trees may die; rivers may cease to flow; earth may burn but nothing could shatter this love, for i always believe we are meant for soul and romance till eternity! Today echoes...we rock...life moves but to undying future, we would always be in love and fun forever!

This is funny but i love my fantasy girl. She is cooler than any girl on the planet and of all, she loves me like i've always dreamed of in my lonely years. Who is she, no body knows; only fate will let me know!!!

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Regret Loving You!

What's the meaning of love if it's not true?
And what possibly could be more painful than that!
Hell?..hell?..hell is my love!
Once in a while, to my surprise, you came
And today, deep down, it sucks!
I regret loving you!
It's an emptiness.

Who knows life could be just today,
Without future
We may end at this very moment but
My love for you won't till forever
I know it sounds crazy and psycho
Well, inside I'm no what I show
Life with you in my mind
And me, just wanting you more than ever
Leaves me empty
To move or wait you is a choice
That I can't do nothing!
But it does scar my empty heart.

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